My Transformation Memoir

Being the change I would like to see in the world


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Benefit of the Doubt

We have a new President Elect. Am I happy about who it is? Absolutely not! But I have done nothing but think on this for two days as I watched the hate, anger, fear and a lot of gloating come through on my Facebook page. In fact, I may have to take a break from Facebook for a while as I am just over it. Instead I would like to reflect on a few things.

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Let me start off by saying I became distraught and disillusioned when Hillary became the DNC nominee. I was for Bernie all the way. For the first time since I can remember I felt real hope for our country and my own situation as my situation has been pretty bleak for a number of years. I was devastated and outraged that the media refused to include him in any of their broadcasts and I was enraged at the obvious corrupt voting platform of our nation. Its not the first time but I was shocked to see my party taking part in it…I truly thought only the Republicans would stooped to such thievery. To me Bernie represented everything good in public office.To me Trump embodied everything evil in humanity and to me Clinton was going to just give us the same old same old. The only person I saw as my champion…that would fight for my rights and the rights of this planet was Bernie. So on voting day I wrote in Bernie’s name. I voted my conscience and probably helped to put Trump in the White House.

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At first I was angry and played with the blame game but the die is cast. What are we going to do? I have several friends that I love, admire and respect that voted for Trump. I heard the reasons why and frankly I could not blame them. They wanted all the things that I wanted. They truly believe this is the way to get it.

One of the things that has governed my life is giving people the benefit of the doubt. Until you prove to me otherwise I am going to go on the assumption that you are a good person. This has opened me up to pain and betrayal many times BUT it has also opened me up to some of the most satisfying relationships I could ever want. If I did not go in to these relationships with an open heart and an open mind I would have missed out. Yes I would have saved myself a lot of hurt but I would have also missed out on a lot of great things in my life. So now I must eat my words and give Donald Trump the benefit of doubt.

One of the things that made Obama’s Presidency such a trial is no one would work with him in Washington. The only people that hurt was us. Imagine what he could have done if Washington gave him a little support or the benefit of the doubt. More than anything I wish this broken country would unite in it’s own welfare. All the division and separation is crushing us and the world is watching. We are the UNITED states. Isn’t it time we acted like it?

So I will pray for our Mother Earth, I will pray for our country and I will pray for Donald Trumps success in the White House. Until he screws us over we owe him that. I will also do my part. For us to leave it all to Washington is a huge mistake. As my husband often says…”if you don’t like something then change it.” Change for the world begins within us. Stop the hate and the fear. Love your neighbor no matter what color, religion or sexual orientation because you just might meet the next great person in your life. Let’s focus on the good. As I write this I am nursing the flu I cannot shake and I have no health insurance to see a physician….oh and I am presently unemployed. I have several degrees but the most I can hope for is a job that pays 9 dollars an hour. Its hard and I am scared and very tired, discouraged and frustrated but none the less I am going to trust that all will work out.

I am grateful for this election because it finally shined a spot light on all that is very broken in our country. Perhaps that is Trumps job…maybe he will do nothing more than shine a light on more dysfunction, corruption and the unfairness of it all. In that case perhaps this will bring about the fixes and cures. It may be a terrible four years but if it leads us to healing then I for one am prepared to ride the storm because I have faith. This is my metaphor for all of this. When a forest becomes old and sick it then becomes vulnerable to disease and fire. The fire is devastating and horrible but what always comes up from the ashes? New growth and vitality. Our country has been a sick and dying forest for quite some time. I choose to see Trump as the fire. To that forest the fire is the worst thing imaginable and its devastating to the plants and animals that live there when a fire sweeps through but new growth is always the result.

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So that being said Lets all stay present, love your fellow human and all our relations including the ones who have no voice and look to the future. Be the example you would like to see in the world. Pour your love into everything you do and if you see something you don’t like then get up and change it no matter how terrifying it is. If you want to know what that looks like just watch what our brothers and sisters are doing at Standing Rock. Do not lose hope and do not give up. The sun will rise each day shining its light on all the beauty in the world, in humanity, and in you.

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And remember to always walk in beauty.

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